Many of us have ideas of what is “right” and “wrong”, “good” and “bad”, and can be quick to put people and experiences into one of these categories. I’ve recently had an experience that helped me with difficult emotions and challenged my perception of “right” vs. “wrong”. What will you think?
My experiences in 2020
I started 2020 with some spiritual challenges that were at times emotionally difficult to face. As you can probably imagine, the turbulent events in March didn’t help in the least. In fact, in the weeks and months that followed, I found myself getting into variably darker and darker moods. I was facing one inner demon after another, and many of my spiritual tools helped for only about a week or two before I had another emotional crash.
This was getting tiring, and it seemed like I’d be on this roller coaster forever.
Then, I ran into a friend who told me about some medicine he’d tried that has helped him in his life. I dismissed his comments for a while, but eventually, during my meditations, his name came to my mind, and I felt compelled to ask him about this medicine.
Finally, in October, I tried this new tool, and it really gave me the push I needed. The people around me have noticed how much calmer I am, how old problems roll off my back more easily, and I can say that I feel like I dropped 100 pounds of emotional weight off my shoulders. I feel like I can make it through the rest of 2020, despite the weirdness around us.
I am so grateful I decided to try this route, and I am so grateful to my friend for having told me about this medicine. Спасибо, друг, яйцо человек!
What was the medicine?
As I mentioned, people have opinions about what is right and wrong to which they can sometimes hold onto so tightly that they may not want to hear another opinion.
The medicine that I used helped me overcome a huge emotional barrier, so much so that I feel like I can hear my soul again after months of silence. I feel so free now that I am “back on the horse” of my spiritual practice to become a better version of me who contributes positivity to this world.
So, is it right or wrong of me to have used this medicine?
Does your opinion of right or wrong depend on what this medicine was? What if I started taking:
- Citalopram: a government-approved synthetic substance (known under the brand name Celexa) commonly used as an antidepressant. Its use changes the chemical reactions in the brain in order to alleviate users from emotions that are a barrier to happy living.
- Pulsatilla: a plant-based homeopathic medicine, legal in our country but often poo-pooed by the Western medical system. Homeopathic medicines are designed to stimulate the immune system and the body’s natural ability to heal, including healing emotions stored at the cellular level.
- Marijuana: a plant that needs no introduction. Illegal in many countries, and even in Canada until 2018, pot has been known to “take the edge off” and allow users to see more clearly, while also offering physical relief from chronic pain.
- Magic mushrooms: banned by most governments, psychotropic mushrooms are natural plants that allow users to free themselves from their worries for a period in order to see their lives from a new perspective.
If I’ve taken one of these substances, do you think it’s morally right or wrong?
Does it matter if the substance is naturally occurring?
Does it matter if the substance is (currently or in the past) banned by governments?
Similarly to how a Canadian government famously said “There’s no place for the state in the bedrooms of the nation,” is there a place for government in my (spiritual) medicine cabinet?
Is your opinion different if we consider that some religions are against some or all of the medicines above?
For those of you who know me personally, does the idea that I may have used one of these substances (especially the ones frowned upon by government) change your opinion of me?
I hope that with my example, my readers will take a moment to consider their opinions about the different tools and perspectives available in our world. A solution that works for me might not work for you.
I hope that my readers can take a step back from labels like “government approved,” “unconventional medicine,” “synthetic,” or “natural” before deciding that other people’s decisions and experiences are good or bad. Especially in the world we live in today, please be kind. Keep an open mind.
Update August 2021
See my post from August 11, 2021 with additional information regarding the tool I mention above.